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come home.
Please.

I'm really alone today, really tired today, last night really sucked, and i have no way to make things better.

anyway,

My red is fading quick and i'm not runnign to razors even though
there still is a calling on silvver laced words
but hey,
somethings i have to stop if i could even expect my Dad to stop.

Shit i wannt things SO much different.

I hate anger.
i hate hate hate hate hate it.


oooo ima such a hypocrit

Hello goodbye meoldramtic say goodnight

I'm reading and reading and findign a place to rest my head,
apon a shoulder
and a tear that hasn't come in a while from songs to heavy to listin to all the time
burns and cuts
cause my head to freeze in memorys i will NEVER forget
My razor's away thank god

I

distort,
twist and
tangle myself into a ball of worry..
at 12 at night,
when it's just the heat of my room, and me
i'm back, one, two years,
with my twin bed,
and my fan making my walls move
loose pages just fluttering

then i gripped people to me like my life line,
now i don't know how,
but i know i'm ready to be open with everyone

I'm liking

my tumblr more and more



http://afamilyofearth.tumblr.com/

Mementooo

don’t even know how long she’s been gone.

It’s like I’ve woken up in the bed and she’s not here…

…because she’s gone to the bathroom or something.

But somehow, I know she’s never gonna come back to bed.




If I could just…

…reach over and touch…

…her side of the bed…

…I would know that it was cold, but I can’t.



I know I can’t have her back…

…but I don’t want to wake up in the morning, thinking she’s still here.

.


I lie here not knowing…

…how long I’ve been alone.



So how…

…how can I heal?

How am I supposed to heal,

if I can’t…

…feel time?

My stomach aches
and I'm realizing at this point my two lives aren't ever going to balance quite right
it's fine it's fine
because as it goes
I can be strong and weak and little and tall and still be
fine with this seperation
holding his green
and our gold
it doesn't matter if it doesn't fit just right all the time

if I care, and you care, what does that have to matter?
We're all a little different,
all a little scared
but whatever it is,
I don't care

breaking fear,
is harder then standing up to whiskey laced breathe
and razor blade words.

the little cut on my ankle keeps me to occupied with the time.
waiting
waiting


One more day, and no more grey
One more day

I don't know

who the fuck you think wrote that,
but it wasn't ME.

If i had a problem with you, i'd just spit it out, i don't need hidden little messages on a dumb wwebsite to tell you the truth

Burning

a candle at both ends,
wait more then both.

Fucking everything is weighted, and i don't need to hear this shit from all ends, i've got some many ears, so many problems, and only so thin i can spread myself.

Seth Devlin: Did you call the fucking cops?
Donnie: Deus ex machina...
Seth Devlin: What did you say? What the fuck did you just say?
Donnie: Our saviour.

I'm thankful for a mother who no matter how many fights or disagreement we get in, she stills comes over at night and takes me home, keeps me safe.
I'm thankful for a stepmom who makes my dad pull over and starts driving, who trys to keep me safe.
I'm thankful for a boyfriend who says it's okay to cry, and holds me really tight.
I'm thankful for friends who follow me to another room when i'm on the phone, even if we haven't talked in months, and makes sure i'm okay.
I'm thankful for friends who offer to leave the party to drive me home.
I'm thankful for friends who send me texts telling me they hope everything is okay.
I'm thankful for friends saying i can go into the front room.
I'm thankful for friends who hug me when i'm crying.

I'm thankful for a dad who's trying atleast, and crys when talking to me.

Hello

3days till i'm free from this orange and white playground of too much homework, too much faking, and fucking pure bliss.
My mom bought me a pretty necklace, and a short black dress.

I'm going phone and swimsuit shopping tomorrow, and i've got more grad parties to attend then time it's self.

It's May 21st, and about a year ago.. i was screaming and dancing with my closet friends, but of all, i was faking it. I felt nothing towards that night.



Someone should call me tonight

I just want to sleep..

Waking up with your words on my ear
you pulled me back
chasing myself over hard touched feet

red rain is falling on my blue skin
and oh I feel so good
but it's the best of times
and it's the worst of times to feel alive

the good chases the bad
the tease
and tickle
and yell
and just make eachother worse with razor blade tongues

it's a chase across bridges
and memories
but waking up is sweeet, like a cold classroom
with blue carpet
and a teacher that held you when you cried.

Everything is sweet,
if you don't remeber the pain

I've got this

Deep breathe

It's all okay :)
deep breaths and a nap, that's all I need. I've got this. :)

Bad day

For oncce in a great while I just want to cry and sleep,
I'm trying.

I'm angry but sad. I guess I just use anger as a coverup of being hurt, sad, upset.




Oh no. Trouble in paradise, just lack of sleep... Just lack of sleep.