I want to feel flesh on flesh. The full thud of a fist on skin. I want to feel the pain and the blood. I want it to shiver down my spine. Don't know what to think, what to do.. How to act. I just want forget what i was and who i am. I want to hit hard and make her words hurt less. I want her razorblade of a tongue to stop slicing me apart, and most of all i want everything to be different.