I can do this. All i have to do is make it through marching band season. It'll be fine.

I have

THe blue October concert to look forward to after band camp..
Daniels texts too.
But then... Marching band for WAY to many months. FML

Hey(:

I'm sitting around,
watching TV.

and.... AGASP. I'm happy. (:

It's not shits and giggles

When I am still hung up on it. And I can not get a straight answer out of you. I know I love you, but it's nothing compaired.

It's bad when I don't realize I'm crying until it slides down to my neck. Oh my god, if i could just rewind. I'd given the world to be back in those moments

Alright

Orme was different this year,
I got over jeff, instead of falling deeper for him,
It sucked at first. Orme you know.
But.. As I moved forward in the sessio. Things got better, mainly the 4 or 3rd to last day when Rambo and I kissed for the 2nd time.. It mad me feeel.. Feeeeeel so good, I was so giggly, so light after, I walked on air, skipped around, couldn't be brought down..
Then the next day, whole camp fire I sat by him, sat infront of him really. Ahahah WELL shared the same seat, his nose brushing my cheek. An my cheek rubbing against him.
We walked to the nurses to get me bandaids, but the nurse wasn't there. And again we kissed, and again I felt like I could touch the sky. And that night when daniel and George snuck over.. It was ovboius he would be with me to the night. And he was.
Till 3am, we never left each others side except when kat and mack stumbled in at 1:30, and he had to hide and when the night patrol came by.

And so I thought I finally had the perfect boyfriend. But no, we all know he loves rachel, and they seem to be better.. Sigh.

Well... I do love you all

The last

few weeks have been.. unbelivable, and so hard,
i'll write more tonight.
but,, i must get ready for band >:(

Minutes

Seconds, hours, days... I'll See you again. Orme is so close, I can taste it I. My lips.

Nothing really good to write today.. Heheh. Love? Yes<3


Mirannnda rachell rambo george!
Oh here I come.

SAVANNAH

M goi g to expolode with exictment about your hair :D

Im just

The type of person to latch onto something and not let go,
Of course.. It's something I'll be able to push through.. Right?
I'm texting guys I don't even really like,
Trying to find someone to measure up to jeff. To what we had.. And how horribley childish and stupid is it of me to want or to look for something to even get close.. Is outrageous, because I can't compair things like that.. Jeff was something totally different, a first love, and even if it ever rekindles it will not be a first love, a third or a fourth, or even a larger number. Love can't be compaired, I'm sure there will me different textures or taste between each one, I might like one flavor better than another but each will be good in it's own way. Hahah I hope.

	I'm trying to sleep.. So i can get some relief.. But images and thoughts are filling my head. And it won't stop. All today, flashing back all over me.. I love you. I miss you. I love you. I miss you. Eh. Over and over moments thoughts. Stop stop mind please stop stop stop. Nothing is stopping this flood.

	Would you belive me if i said i still love you?

It's officaly

Over.
I feel like I made a mistake.. But... I can't put him threw hell by asking him back def. If I find out I didn't make a mistake

	I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I never was good enough for you. Tomorrow.. Tomorrow. I'm sorry babe. I love you. I love you so much, even if i'm going to do this. I'm so sorry

would it be better,

if he didn't care at all,
Or if ibroke his heart?

Of course the first one even if it would burn and hurt more at first.. Or mayeb not.
I don't know... It's going so suck either way.
I'm so sorry, so sorry..
It atleast hurt the first way in my dream..

Oh god oh god, no final kisses.. No no no..
I'm a fucking horrible person it feels.

What am I doing tomorrow?

Ending I One of the things that I used to wakeup for.



Ahhh wowow

Reasons

We've been here for months
You keep ditching me
Spark is gone
Don't pay attention to me
We are more like friends
Fuxxxed me over alot





Ah tomorrow.. Or whenever, I'm sure this is going to fall to shit,
And it's because I love you.