Tonight

I honestly plan to have a converstaion with Jeffrey.
I might call Sara.


My last call to teh us. was kind of disapointing if you know what i mean. After spending a few hours going over it though i realzied, my thoughts, and my emotions were irrational. Need ing to sleep.. i slept. And for the first time in a long time, i slept quite well. I woke up thought thinking i had a popscile on my pillow.
I saw both cousins today, they are so.. grown up. Beuatifull too. Makes me wonder.

Its been two years since I've been anywhere close to these house, and instead of felling my usual lostness i found i fit right in. I desire to see the stable,a nd get ona horse. Its been much to long. Much Much to long.


The cold weather here is a nice change though i don't enjoy teh heavy jackets much. IMy fingers freeze and the cars window have to be scrapped.

I wear my new jacket, one of the presents i was allowed to unwrap. Pink white and teal, zebra too. 100 euro from oma and a FOB cd to use because its all my music right now because of the ipod death, though i am perfectly fine listening to it. It was about all i listened to in england. Consdiering now that this is teh new cd. They have a new sound, and beter words.

"change will come"- yes change will come.





:)