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Just going to post a blog today how i take so much for granted, but stopped because i couldn't find a real nitch into it. To get it really going, but after what's happened tonight, i have. I really don;t take into to acount often how easily a human life can be taken away, even if i've had so many death's in my life with family, friends, or just people i knew.
I'm realizing right now, that i haven't told any of you how much you mean to me lately, or in months.

Caroline: Even though i just met you this year, you've always been there for me. I can always talk to you and text you when i'm having a bad day, or am really stressed, or need someone. and i can talk to you about it. You're the perfect pick me up. I need you. I love you

Sarah: You're a person i can come to with anythign on my plate, weither it beign a good day or a bad day, or like tonight, and this whole week, and i can just talk to you till i have no more words to type, text or whatever. You are such a amazing, beautifull, smart person. Please never forget that, you are ment to do something great, i swear. I love you.

Savannah: My beautifull southern bell.. you are so beautifull. I know i haven't talked to you in for forever, and i haven't been there this year for you, but i still want 4am myspace messages from you, and long car rides with make-shift lunchs from random stores. You are strong, and artistic. I need you. I love you.

Jack: This year has been rough for you, last year too. We were so close last year, towards teh end atleast, and i can honestly say, you were very close to my best friend, and i loved (still do) like a brother, the one i never had. With are many adventure's to best buy, tempe market place, the mall, xtreme bean, and ditchign church, i felt like i could tell you anything. Jack, your strong, great, and still my brother. I offically apologize for anything i have done this year.. ignoring your texts, locking you out. Not being there when you needed me, and not being ME when that's all you wanted me to be. I care a lot about you still, and i'm honest if you ask me a question. I need you. I love you


Mackenzie: What would i be without you? nothing of course. Nothing. In whatever sense you look at us, i owe you far more then you owe me, and darling, you are still the only person to make my chest heave, and my sking beg for metal, my eyes to burn, and my eyelashes glisten. You've been my best friend, for as long as i need to rememeber, because in all honesty i have no reason to remember anything before then. You taught me what the darkest places were in the world, and that they were created by your own self, you taught me how to live.(at last). And deep in the bottoms of my designed mind, i have all those nights stored away, where we screamed, and shook to blue october, placebo, MCR, MSI, linkin park and whatever else we recorded on my pink camera. I have all those all nighters, and words i can't help but forget. I'm sorry i disapeared on you this year.. i'm sorry i was never there, i'm sorry i wasn't there to wipe away your tears, i'm sosrry i wasn't therer to make the burnign stop, i'm sorry i wasn't therer to take that razor from your hand, i'm sorry i wan't there to hold you hand, and help you crawl out my window, i'm sorry i i wasn't there. But, without you, i wouldn't be me. I need you. i love you.

Michael: I just would like to say, that i never thought i would find someone like you in my whole life. You keep me up on my hardest days, and i can coem to you and tell you everything, you are the perfect person for me, my life would not be complete without you. You bring out the best in me, and make me feel so special and beautiful.. even on my worst days, you are my shining light at the end of every dark tunnel. I never want to be without you. You make my life complete, i can come to you whenever i'm really stressed or upset, and you'll talk to me about it, and just make me smile. I look forward to seeing you every morning, and you honestly bring such hapiness to my life, you have no idea. I need you. I honestly do want to spend the rest of my life with you. I love you with all my heart.